Another weekend comes and goes and I don't know what happened ... seems the older I get, the faster time goes, and the more I need to get done, but the less I actually do?? Do you feel the same way?
One thing for sure, priorities do change, as they should. My days of chasing kids, hurrying home to make sure hubby has the perfect dinner he wants, and trying(in vain, I might add) to keep a decently clean house are all a thing of the past. Kids are grown and living their own lives, being who they are --- hubby never assumes his dinner will be cooked, let alone to his specifications, and the house, well, what the Hell, I just don't like to clean and that is that! I like clean, I just don't want to be a slave to a house anymore. In fact, I don't really want to be a slave to anything. I do still work, and enjoy it, although this too, is now a challenge, as it seems they are always trying to figure out ways to get more of me, and damn it, I have given all my life, and if a good days work isn't good enough, well, don't know what else to say about that. I have always worked hard and longer than I had to, just to try to go above and beyond - that is just who I am.
Alas, with so many pieces of my life puzzle in place(or in place as much as they are gonna fit!), when I look at it from an objective view, I realize that like many women, most of my life has been in service to others, which is not a bad legacy, but sadly, I got left behind. Hence, the journey and the need to find and fulfill who I am. I never thought about health, and have always been pretty healthy, except for the weight. Now, I realize that wasn't healthy either, but for those who are old enough to remember, we didn't know what we do now. Maybe we didn't have to ... we didn't always load our food with chemicals and preservatives and cook meals from the microwave --- hmm -- tired, think on all that!
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